December 25, 2001

  • Merry Christmas


    I'm usually a very happy go lucky person, but I'm afraid this will be my first and hopefully only depressing post!  It's quite sad, I've never been this lonely Christmas Eve and Christmas.  As I grew older, the excitement of Christmas slowly started to dissipate.  I'm sure many of us remember that one time when Christmas just didn't feel like Christmas anymore.  After that day, Christmas was just like any other day, except people didn't really go to work.  Well, I didn't realize until here in Shanghai how much I took for granted.  Christmas alone sucks.


    Last night was Christmas eve, and I wasn't alone alone.  I went out to a bar called Face Bar with Ivan and Nathan and met up with some friends and some of their friends.  Even with all the people around, I couldn't help but feel alone.  Miles and miles away from family and friends made me miss the Christmas carols, the warm turkey dinners and the hassles of family gatherings.  Christmas in SH isn't celebrated like it is at home, at least not yet.  I can see that the stores are trying to get into the Christmas spirit with all their decorations and all, but I know deep down inside, China's just trying to capitalize on the whole commercialization of Christmas.  My first sign was seen downtown when different groups of people walked around together with Santa hats on.  They bought it to try to get into the Christmas spirit but what is this spirit really?


    For me, aside from the birth of Christ, Christmas means more than ever now, family and friends.  People are always so busy with their here's and there's, this's and that's, that when Christmas comes around and everyone is forced to stay home on their day off, it feels great being with family and friends.  That feeling of warmth that words just can't describe... I'm tempted to lunge and hug the guy beside me just to feel a little bit of that Christmas warmth.  But I know that it won't be the same as it would be at home.  Alas, I must hug myself.  One more lonely holiday to cross and then I should be homefree for the next year but New Years is going to suck.  Everyone's been asking me what I've planned for New Years here in SH.  Most likely going to a party with a bunch of drunk people I don't really know.  Yip dee doo.


    I can never say I miss you guys enough for it to come close to how it really feels.  Merry Christmas everyone.


    PS Happy belated Birthday, Mat.  Hopefully I'll see you in HK.

Comments (3)

  • has it snowed yet ?  sorry that you're feeling so down during christmas, i guess it can be more difficult, especially during such a holiday.  either the way though, i hope you do have a safe and healthy holiday. 

  • "Sometimes when I'm feeling lonely I have relations with myself..."

    We miss you too man.

  • I know what you mean about people always being so busy and not having time for each other.  It's nice when Christmas comes along people make time for each other to spend time with family and friends... sometimes I wonder why people don't make more time throughout the year for their loved ones?  It's too bad you couldn't spend Christmas with your family and friends, but I'm sure they're thinking of you.  Merry Christmas *hugz*

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